The moment you stop caring about the little things that won’t matter in the year’s time is the moment you move on with your life and (even better) start to really live.
A lot has happened over the past month, which is why I have been practically radio silent (particularly here on my blog). A large part of blogging is being honest with your readers, something I learned a long time ago. So here’s what has been going on in my life recently, and how I’ve come to think positively about it:
After only two months of absolute whirlwind romance, my boyfriend made the decision to take a job which would mean he would be out of the country for weeks at a time. As a result, we had to end our relationship, and even as I am writing this I am struck with the pain I feel about this decision. Neither one of us has found the decision easy, and for a while I tried to convince him (and to an extent myself) that we could make it work. One day, I woke up and decided that no, we could not make this work and he was right to end this now, as opposed to hanging on to something which would eventually evaporate into nothing because of our circumstances.
I have spent the better part of the past few weeks, trying to get past the stage of void which has filled me as a result, and can safely say that even though it still saddens me, I now have other things to focus on.
The next year will be my year, and all decisions will be selfish (at least to an extent) and based on bettering myself and my life because when you are at rock bottom (or close to it), the only way from there is up. This situation is already making me stronger, and I will not let it knock me down because there is nothing to be knocked down by, it is a simple situation of circumstance where the outcome could not be changed and so, there is no point in dwelling on it.
The next year of my life will be based around this quote, which I recently read on Kayla Itsines’s Facebook page: Be strong enough to let go and wise enough to wait for what you deserve.
Ladies, this is such a strong quote, and one which every one of you should live your lives by because you all deserve better than a situation which is upsetting you or will sooner or later upset you.
After everything that has happened throughout the past few weeks, I decided I would postpone moving into my own flat for a while because I feel that I would be too lonely to do this just yet. I really need to focus on myself and making new friends, and 2016 will be all about that.
Alongside the boyfriend situation, a few other things have happened which have rendered me upset (the details of which I will not describe here because they are irrelevant). As a result of everything, my diet has gone down the drain, and exercise has been non-existent for the past month. I am now in a much better frame of mind, and ready to pull myself back on track. Today has been the first day of going back to healthy eating and light exercise (it was only a walk but better than nothing when you’re struck with flu). Tomorrow I will begin slowly easing back into my gym routine. I will succeed, I will surround myself with positivity and people who believe what I believe, and above all, I will stop caring too much about what other people think of me!